This is a practice that I do every once in a while. I got the idea from Tim Ferris. It’s the process of dissecting your fear. The idea is that by “tearing” apart your fears and getting down to the bottom of it, it can help you overcome it.
These are going to be hard for me to explain. I’m not even sure what the fear is. Hopefully, this will help me find out. And perhaps you, my reader can help me identify them.
The following fears or feelings, I have consistently felt for the past few years.
The Fear of Not Doing a Good Job
Nearly every time before a big video job, I get lots of anxiety. This is especially true when it comes to weddings. Here are some of the questions that go through my mind:
- What if I miss a shot?
- What if I don’t get the right sequence of shots?
- What if I don’t get there in time?
- What if I miss an important moment.
- What if I don’t get an angle or don’t know how.
My mind knows that “what if” questions are pointless, but I’m still anxious for some reason.
In fact: I know it nearly always turns out to be OK and about an hour into the shoot, I’m generally having a good time.
But the problem is that the anxiety itself can prohibit me from thinking clearly, especially at the beginning of the shoot.
The Anxiety of Improving My Work
This is a weird one for me. In my attempt to improve myself in my work or even life, I’ll do research.
At times while doing this research, I get anxious. I think it’s because I wonder if I’ll be able to actually implement those improvements to become as good as the person I’m learning from. Or I find it difficult to cross the gap in my mind between learning and actually applying.
I get this same anxiety when I watch someone who does better work than I do.
Again, my brain knows that the end result is to not look at what others do and compare — but rather focus on improving myself.
Perhaps it boils down to a feeling of no confidence or the feeling that I’m not good enough.
I’m not quite sure.
So…what’s the solution?
- Getting in a better frame of mind?
- Being better prepared?
- Physically Practice my craft more?
- Meditation or Priming (Tony Robbins methods)
Anyways…just some thoughts for the day.